Joyfully Alive

…Campaigns that teach the same truths, but from a place of love, gratitude, choice, honor, and “flowing”… instead of fear, guilt, pain, anger, and “fighting?”

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Hugging another person, without receiving or giving, but simply becoming blank, is one of most wonderful experiences in the world to me.  Simply dropping into a place of nothingness… No judgment, no thoughts, no ego… just (non-romantic, non-directed, un-modified) pure deep love… just basking in that deeper, purer love that is always present the moment we remove everything that isn't love.

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I am gratefully and happily married to the woman of my dreams. I completely enjoy focusing my attention and energy inward, into that relationship, with all my being.  She is everything I ever wanted – she is herself – it is such an amazing joy and honor to be in relationship with someone who absolutely, authentically, and honestly is, exactly who she is.  She provides that “safe place” for me to do my inner work and transform.  It is in her presence, that I find my home; choose my greatest adventure; express my greatest joy; and bask in my deepest peace.

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When I first joined the zaadz/gaia community, I was looking for stimulating discussion about transformation, manifestation, creating reality, and even topics such as vibrational resonance, bilocation, ascension, and nonduality. Not on a theoretical level, but on a practical, practicing, and experiential level.

Today, however, while all of those things still interest me in a theoretical sense, I enjoy so much more just talking with someone who is authentic and real.  I value vulnerable personal sharing far more than intellectual rhetoric, even about amazing spiritual subjects.  I would much rather connect deeply with… well… anyone, actually… than go to one more training, learn one more level of spiritual truth, or have a another major psychological aha.  (Although you wouldn't be able to tell that from my earlier blog postings – which were fun enough to think about and write, but don't really mean anything in the most important sense of being.)(And… I still love a great training, ego-annihilating book, or amazing inner shift of consciousness.)

“Just being” (like “savasana” in yoga) is my very favorite thing.  No requirements.  No demands.  No expectation.  No force.  Just being.  Just resting in “what is.”

Agate hunting on the beach at the Oregon coast is one of my favorite recharge activities.  And on the way, I like to seek out a hidden hot springs and soak in the buff, or go on a short hike to a waterfall, or just hang out in nature.

These days, I spend my precious moments of free time noticing what energy I am presencing, connecting with my friends on Zaadz/Gaia, planning for the next Burning Man, cooking something healthy I've never made before, learning new hoop/juggle/spin expressions, philosophizing about powerful ways to make the world a better place, transforming myself (another layer of depth,) attending a Journey event, allowing myself to sit with whatever is here, or wrapping myself in a blanket with a good book and a cup of Passion Tea – or dark hot chocolate – by the fire (and hoping my wife might break free from whatever she's doing and come hang out with me.)

In my professional life, I'm a computer guy.  But I'm firstly a people person.  If I could write one computer book, it would be “programming from the heart” or “intuitive project management.”  I used to think that computer programming was not a spiritual activity, but I have begun to view it as taking “unorganized” thoughts or ideas, and organizing them into patterns until I get a working manifestation that makes “things happen” more powerfully, more easily, more effectively, more efficiently, and even automatically.  Programming is nothing more than patterns of patterns.  Just like music.  Just like molecules.  Just like emotions.  Just like brainwaves.  Just like limiting beliefs.  Just like freeing beliefs.

Inventing has always been one of my greatest passions.  Not just “things” but all ideas, innovations, brainstorming, systems, and creativity in general.  Especially those ideas that have the potential to transform the world and truly impact people's lives.  I highly recommend Stephen Keye's “Invent Right” system for anyone who is interested in getting their invention out to the world, without paying an arm and a leg for patents, legal work, manufacturing prototypes, etc.  Truly revolutionary.  Way simple.  And totally efficacious!

I believe music is the second most powerful tool there is – both for transformation, and for simply being.  Playing, Listening to, and Sharing music is the second most powerful modality in my life.  Kirtana is my favorite artist.  I highly recommend her music to anyone who enjoys ego-melting words – and soft, peaceful, soul-drenching music.  Deva Primal and Miten are my second favorite musicians.

I resisted yoga for many years, projecting all kinds of beliefs onto it.  Then I tried it.  And it blew me away.  My favorite is Bikram.  Bikram yoga is like a sweat lodge, work out, meditation, emotional release process, and transformational training… all packed into one 90 minute session at 104 degrees fahrenheit.  The result (and the euphoria it elicits) is unlike anything else.  The emotional drama that goes on in my head (and body) prior to, and during practice, is utterly mind boggling.  I learn things, think things, feel things, and experience energetic and spiritual shifts in the yoga room, that I never imagined I would ever contemplate considering.  I truly believe, if I could choose only one daily discipline in life, yoga would be the most effective option I could choose to keep my “being” at peak performance; physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.  I totally love it.  It is my most valuable discipline.

I believe there is a “right tool for the job” in every aspect of life – including health, emotional balance, and spiritual freedom.  We all know how hard it is to do any job, when we don't have the right tool.  And when we finally get the right tool, how relieved we are, and how peacefully and efficiently we handle the job once we've found a tool that works.  Although there are thousands of tools to choose from (which I love) I have my favorites for each part of my life.  Sometimes finding the right tool is the hardest part of any task, project, shift, growth, or movement.  But it is one of the most essential parts.  (of course, entire toolboxes filled with tools don't do any good if they aren't being used.) 

My favorite tool for transformation is, The Journey. 

Since true inner Freedom (spiritual freedom) is my greatest value – many years ago I became an avid gatherer of spiritual power tools.  Anything that purported to provide (or increase) true freedom, has been something I would dive into with passion and intensity.  I spent half of my life with the intention to explore, study, and master, every modality I could get my hands on.  From Reiki to Aromatherapy, from EFT to RET, from NLP to archetypes, I spent years as a seeker, diving into the most powerful psychological processes and trainings and the most enlightening spiritual disciplines I could find.

And then I stopped.  I still have a passion for spiritual power tools, but what I found, is that the only thing that actually works (for true inner transformation) is getting to the core of self, telling the deepest truth, and then allowing the “blocks” (beliefs, fears, vows, etc.) to melt in the face of truth.  And, once there… forgiving… completely, from that deep inner place… not just from the mind, but from the very core of being.

When I came across The Journey, it floored me – because of its simplicity and limitlessness.  It wasn't anything magical.  I had experienced most parts of it in one modality or another over the years.  But it was specifically designed, by a woman who had learned her own inner healing, and then gathered the most powerful healing elements into a single process, so that anybody could use it.

Although the book is inspiring, and a great start – the real power of the process wasn't apparent to me until I attended an intensive – where I could experience it fully – along with others who were there with the same desire inner freedom.

I experimented with it on myself and my family, and found better results than I expected (and I expected a lot.)  We experienced phobias vanishing, chronic ailments disappearing, emotional blocks melting, and a deeper connection with self (and each other.)  Every single experience left me amazed.  So… I jumped on it… and then I found out I hadn't even begun to go to the depths of the core of my being that were possible.  And I've been diving into ”me” ever since.  Going inside, is the only place freedom is ever found.  It's the only place peace is ever uncovered.  Freedom is one of those secret gifts, because it is never found outside of us, and that's where most of us have spent our lives looking.

It's not a receiving of some “thing” previously not posessed.

It's not a learning of some secret “knowledge” that was previously unknown.

It's not a “swooping down” of some cosmic angelic being to “bestow” a gift that was previously not had.

It is an uncovering of truth –  A shift of consciousness – that creates all permanent healing – physical, emotional, or mental – And it is that same shift of cosnciousness that creates all true freedom – inner, outer, spiritual, and material.

It is seeing what was already always there.

It is facing and tearing off the covering over the beliefs and vows (and the lies) we have been telling ourselves, our whole lives – the limits we have placed upon our selves – that keep us from the purest love, deepest peace, and most obliterative joy that is already always there, and is always available to anyone who opens to it. 

That's what using The Journey opened to me.  I loved it.  It may not be everyone's tool.  And it's certainly not the only tool I use.  But it's the one right at the top of my tool box, for opening and removing blocks, in my life.  The first one I grab, out of all of dozens of other excellent tools.

And, yet… the tool being used is not what determines healing, transformation and freedom.  The tool is only an indicator.  The tool only points toward the place where freedom is discovered.  The power is in the self, not the tool.  So don't expect Journey (or any other tool) to save you, fix you, heal you, enlighten you, or bring you peace and joy.

And on the other hand, if you are willing to go the distance; if you are willing to look at the deepest place within yourself;  if you are willing to let yourself be as unfixed or fixed as you are in this moment, to see who you are at your deepest core, to “be still” and rest in the self.  (Using The Journey or any other tool.)  You'll find that there is nothing to fix, and that everything you ever wanted was always right there waiting for you to open to it.  And you'll find that healing follows the acknowledgment of what is already true.  And you'll find that peace and joy are your birthright.

The Journey was designed to work, even if you don't know how to do that… yet.

I'm grateful to be part of a community that is committed to “being the change” and presencing such an amazing energy.  Zaadz/Gaia has been a powerful sacred part of my transformational process.  I express deep gratitude and honor, and acknowledge the contribution of each individual participant.  Especially you, for finding me.  If you resonate, let's connect!  That's how we expand and grow the most!

Thank you for visiting my profile.

I love you, just as you are!

Namaste'

Paul (JustBeOne)